love of life means hope for me. by The-Jelly-Princess, literature
Literature
love of life means hope for me.
my body is my home.
you think i'd respect it,
love it,
stroke it's walls and whisper into its soul:
your walls are beautiful
your windows are beautiful
and everything inside is beautiful, too
instead
i slashed through the wallpaper
threw black curtains over the windows
shattered vases and lacquered staircases,
fighting a war with the shadows
as the sun set over the horizon
and my electricity flickered out.
i took a hammer and tore through
everything
emptying my home and letting everything
everything that made my home a wonderful
place to live in
fade away
it's no wonder i began to long for a different house
a way out the door
peering out
marching unto this great unknown. by The-Jelly-Princess, literature
Literature
marching unto this great unknown.
what is it?
what is it?
what's that which we hear—
the crystallized sound of bells that we fear;
the blue memories of light we have lost,
away with the wind and away with the frost.
speak to me, voice,
and tell me of day:
craft stories of iron that never will fray.
give me your strength and give me your fight,
and angels will guard me through deep morning's light.
so we shall go then, red lips and green eyes:
down under the grand old westernly skies;
where dreams are then crafted and set free to soar,
so please do come knocking upon my white door.
(but tread lightly old man,
for you know better than most:
it is better to die
than to
teach me to let go of the past. by The-Jelly-Princess, literature
Literature
teach me to let go of the past.
i painted careful designs
on the outside of my glass heart—
the fatal flaw being,
of course,
that you could see right through me.
i suppose
you didn't want
the fragile girl,
the one who was romantic and sad
and everything you weren't. you said
something along the lines of, "oh god,
you're not becoming a sad girl,
are you?"
because everyone knows
sad girls
are the worst kind of girls to break.
and everyone knows
sad boys
are the worst kind of boys to love.
but my glass heart,
delicate lungs
and empty stomach
weren't right for you.
you're the boy that sleeps on the floor because
he hates his bed; the boy who cries into his pillow
a
Crimson red splashing angrily about my eyes
Feeling a bomb go off in my vision
I am seeing red.
Take me as you find me
Covered in scars
My mind forever wandering the vague impression of time.
I am lost to all but you.
The Blades of Faith, spinning angrily about my shoulders
A temperamental thing, the angry circles it turns.
It taunts me, tempting me with bloodlust.
My mind is raging out of control
My heart is burdened with compunction
I am torn to my intuition.
I cannot hope to be cognizant with the affects.
Of war.
Of life.
Of the burden I’ve chosen.
Help me to know my judgment is yours.
Do I breathe the way you desire?
For t
miscommunication. by The-Jelly-Princess, literature
Literature
miscommunication.
i sat at a table,
kicking my backpack at my feet,
not listening to the conversation
but the stained walls of my mind.
(i don’t want to go home and i
don’t want to leave, but my lungs
are so nostalgic for the warm
summer breeze)
airports are always full of
sadness and excitement. this
one was stuffed with words
i didn’t understand, beautiful
accents, and miscommunication–
because translation is a trickster
and people don’t always say
what they mean.
her name was edith.
she was grandmotherly, with eyes
that were still alive even though
time (that fickle beast) had taken
quick movements and youth away
from her
an
the worst idea you ever had
was admitting to me that you
valued my opinion above your
own (this means that every
time i complain about my
weight, the size of my thighs
and stomach, my grades, you
believe that i will not love
you unless you meet my own
expectations).
this also means that if you
ever try to do something i
don't want you to do, i know
the perfect things to say in
order to break you; i know
that you will bend and snap
to my every word.
[you're too afraid to
lose my so-called
"friendship". really,
it's just blackmail.]
nobody even knows
what a black hole
looks like because
when light tries to
illuminate it the
darkness swallows
everything. (and
when i was little i
read an encyclopedia
about science and
space and i learned
that there might
even be a black
hole in the center
of our galaxy. a
thousand burning
suns swirl around
the darkness and
dance closer and
closer to their death;
but i am worried
about this tiny
little plant and
when its people
might die.)
there is something flawed
in my education.
growing up "gifted" and "talented";
expected to know things that cannot be known;
that we have never known;
that were never taught.
we were separated from the others
because we're special.
learn this. memorize that.
why do you need help?
you're with the smart kids.
i was fed dreams spoonful by spoonful
i choked down the large words
swallowed my pride
a fifth-grader's brain looked at
chess pieces on a diagram
and forced the algebra into their head.
i went from
a little bit above average
to
two years ahead
i started sixth grade
with seventh grade english
and eighth grade math
i couldn't tell yo